Less than an effin hour ago my parent found a really big bruise on my brothers leg. really purple and bout 2'' by1'' it is big. I saw the same bruise yeasterday. What did i do? asked him what it was about he walked away i ignored it. IGNORED AND EFFING 2 BY1 BRUISE !!! i feel horrible now cuz my parents think someone might be bullying him, but he wont tell us anything. he wont speak about it. Im effing mad at my self mostly but aslo at what ever it is that is casuing it and at him for not telling us. I feel so selfish cuz i was wrapped arround me that i didnt notice anything was happening to him.... i feel like crying now

Lately i feel alot like banging my head on the nearest hard surface. maybe with the impact my thoughts would become clearer or maybe less important cuz id have brain injury lol

............  .............5mins later.........  ......................10 mins later............  ......eventually................             LOL if only life worked that way...

 Its moi very first EVER detention!!!!! Yay!! Never before had i gotten a detention, and it was prolly bout time. LOL It is fur a stupid thing too, diidnt bring back freakin progress reports signed. what kind of a reason to give detention is that???  Anyway,that is really da tip of da iceberg. I got midterm reports all bs 2a 1fail. I ussually have like 2b allA no fail... stupidest thing to fail too... BAND... just because theyre 9 weeks completion grades, not as you go like every other teacher... band directors are weird... I can bring sci and math b up, not sure bout ss. Undr coment for math the teacher wrote failure to complete assignament. It sounds as if i tried....i didnt..... Oh well... its only midterms. MY PARENTS ARE GOING TO  TALK TO MEH!! i hate that....they give me these looks like oh im so disapointed but they should realy be proud even if i bring bs at least im not failing everything and im in gifted so... 

  the thing terachers hav to undrstand bout me is that im a teen. A good behoviored one at that.(most of the time)but that alone should say that im not baout to talk with my parents let alone show them my progress reports every two weeks. Not going to happen.  especially not with meh. Im in internal stike agains authorities AND this is moi teen years. acting rectless is what im soposed to do. that way i can get it out of meh and when i get to college i can be all oh yeah recless is bad. the romans (or the greeks??) used to let eight year old girls (the equivalent to teens now cuz they only lived 40 years) out to the wild nakies just like when they were bord basically for a year so they could get wildness out of their systems.they had to get food and survive for them selves. and that is what they should let us do. chances are either we die of reclessness or we become stronger out of the experience, which will help us later in our lives.

 Yes i kno that sound like a horribel idea there are more dangerous thign out there than a bunch of woods,  like sex,  drugs, cars, alcohol and cliffs(one can fall off of them LOL  . but that is the way i think. ...

anyway, that be the way i live and that be trouble im in so i hope it end well when i tell moi parents 2nite