According to my county of residence, I am a Gifted child. Im having a hard time with that. Being gifted means confusion and trouble for meh. It just hard. I just developed too fast and i know things and thinks things because i kno things that i just shouldn't be knowing and thinking and doing. So today i was thinking about those book for the parents of gifted children "Living with your Gifted Child", And wondering is there something out there like " Living with your Gifted self" that one would really help. I mean what if you dont have gifted children what then? I've read articles on how to build a stable environment for your gifted child but no article ever comes up on how to live with yourself.

   Its hard for me because i tend to think too much. I zero in on things with a lot of enthusiasm but i will drop it in like 5 minutes. I cuestion too many customs and beliefs in my life. Like during christmas i was like mum  why do we put up a tree?  and during easter mum what do bunnies have to do with it? Or why cant we take naps during the day? (which my mum forbids) Turns out christmas trees have nothing to do with teh birth of jesus, and taking naps during the day is actually healthy for us. I think too mcuh and because i think to much im sometimes reckless in what i do.  

Anyway, im still trying to find that book article or information on how to live with ones gifted self. Any suggestions??

     Yesterday, while partying with meh sis, I met hot guy in the green shirt.

     I ussually don't go to partyies with meh sis, cuz she once took me to one and I hated it.Todays teens have created a way of dancin that is just plin bulgar. It basicly sex with yer clothes on. Guys have ter stand aganist walls (for support) and hold girls hips wile the ladies (not!) rub they asses aganist the guys hip area. In dance clubs, gals may wear really shorts skirts with nothin under and dance this music. Don't ask how i kno i just do... Point is that this type of dancin is too bulgar for my likin. But last night, I just really felt like dancin all nite, so I went like sis imna go with yeh to da pateh. So i went to the party and i stood there for a while just watchin things. And then I saw him.

    He was hot .  He was wearin a green striped with white t-shirt from one of those preppy stores prolly areopostale, ripped jeans and sneakers. He had relly cute dimples and relly nice dark eyes. He was just gorgeous. And i took to watchin him for the whole freakin parteh.After a while i nicknamed him hot guy in the green shirt. His name may be junior but idk so for now, hes hot guy in the green shirt. He reminded me a lot of Ivan (Ivan is a different story i will tell in the later future). They had similar eyes,same hair cut , same heartshaped face similar skin tone same kool dimples...  

     I didnt dance at all,but i dd get infatuated with the guy. He hugged me like twice and we talked for a bit, but nothing much else happened. I spent round 4hours looking at him and considering the merits of my infatuation.

    One can prolly guess from the way he carried himself that he might be gay. Which it turns out he is bi. I spent that party stalkin afrter a bi. Which doesn't really bother me for some rerason. Prolly cuz i kno im not going to get anywhere with him. But i would have liked to tho...

     I aslo considered his age. I mean, he was prolly round 16 or 17. Thats a big gap in age if ye ask me. It would have prolly freaked  everyone in meh familey if I had ever gone out with him. Frist of all cuz i haven't dated in forever and second because of his age and third cuz of his orientation wich doesn't bother me at all.

    Yestereday, life left me with one impossible crush and craving to dance lot and lots and lots. (wich i didnt acomplish. boo!=( )